Carry Me

Today is Friday. Can't believe it's ONLY FUCKING FRIDAY. Days seem like months. Constantly looking for a job and hardly getting to see my boyfriend is taking it's toll. This Thursday I got all dressed up and had my mom drive me to a job I was interested in. I had her drive me because it's almost impossible to get a parking space anywhere in that area- she circled the block until I came back down. I made my way up the elevator, resume in hands and entered a room. The lady at the front desk didn't look like she knew about anything that was going on and when I asked for the supervisor the lady informed me she was away on vacation. So I guess my career counselor was right about taking this week off for job hunting because everyone is away on vacation. I'll give it another try on Tuesday. Other than this job, I have no leads. My career counselor is sending my resume out to a couple of companies after Labor day but I really don't know what will happen there.

Today was hard day too. My old job was working at a vet and today I had to bring my dog in to be checked out for a little surgery he'll need for next week. I guess it was hard going back to my old job to see all my old co-workers. We'll actually, they seemed pretty miserable to be honest. Nothing- I mean nothing has changed since I've been gone. I'm not sad I left my old job. Even though right now I'm looking for a job, I feel as though I left to do bigger and better things. I mean no one there is really thinking towards their future. None of them have degrees and don't seem to have many plans for their futures.

I know eventually I will get a job and hopefully one I like. It's just hard right now because finding a job is all I can think about. I've been trying to keep my mind off of it by doing pretty much anything. Today I went on a trip to the hardware store with my mom just to keep myself busy. It's also been hard because I haven't been able to see my boyfriend because of his new crazy work schedule. It's just been hard. I just have to stay strong. Stay strong.