It's almost 1am and I'm on crappy movie number 2 and eating left over chicken salad.
Today was another err...day. I purchased another ticket for the emotional roller coaster and went from being on verge of tears to complete tranquility. I sent out a couple more resumes. None of which got me too excited.
Talked to Annmarie today and she laughed at my hysterics. It's been less than 2 weeks since I started looking for a job and I've had some success- going on 3 interviews and I could of had all 3 jobs if I wanted them but I didn't. So my fears went from thinking I'll never find a job to fearing I'll never find a job that will make me happy.
What is with everyone saying "IT WILL WORK OUT". I know that's just a line people use because they want to shut you up. Oh, so you know it will be alright- where's your crystal ball, your tarot cards...
Today I sickeningly looked up old classmates on myspace to see if my current state was equal to theirs. Some were stay at home moms, some never went or graduated college. Even the ones that had good jobs I didn't envy. It was the ones who seemed to be happy and so effortlessly too. Like they really knew themselves and were doing what they wanted to do. This feeling just makes me hate myself a little more at this point. One of the girls had a picture of herself running along the beach with the caption "Stop worrying and take a chance" next to it. I wrote it on a sticky and taped it to my computer.
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Thanks for your comments! Believe me, it's not a walk in the park to be self-employed (ahh the neverending joys of temp waitressing). Congratulations on graduating! Part of my degree was in Psych so Im a big nerd for it. Keep us posted on your future interviews and eventual fabulous job, you can do it!
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