Crippling

Why can't I just chill the fuck out?
This last week was a total lost week because of Labor day and pretty much EVERYONE went away last week. So, like my career advisor advised, I didn't send any resumes out.
First thing this morning I emailed out 4 resumes- 2 jobs I like and 2 I could deal with.

I just wish I could chill out and just enjoy the last of these breezy summer days and just know that I'll get a job eventually.I can't even tell you how I can actually feel the anxiety pulsating through my veins.

The day outside is just flawless and I'm actually going to get to spend time with my boyfriend tonight but once again I'm so stressed out that I'm shaky! Just wish I could chill out- why can't I? I should be feeling happy....
I'll eventually get a job, I'm moving in with my boyfriend, I just got my diploma on Sunday and I made the Deans list....yet all I can focus on is the crippling anxiety.