I'm a Toys R Us Kid....

I get that growing up is going to be this ever changing experience that is filled with mind blowing happiness and severe tragedies that will knock me off my feet whenever I start to feel too comfortable. Things when we were young were simple. People made decisions for us, we only knew a few people and we loved them, and we didn't know about all the pain and despair the world held. Then we grow up and we're thrust into this crazy busy world and it's hard enough to just try to keep up.



One small example; when I was a kid Saturdays were spent in my front yard playing with my friends, until my mom called us in for a grilled cheese sandwhich. Fast forward 20 something years and I spend my Saturdays with new friends (meet Reslove, Lysol, Tilex and Windex). Instead of the warm sun shinning on me, the fluorescent lights beat down on me from the bathroom ceiling. Things sure do change...

Of course it's not all bad. Sometimes as adults we get time to play on Saturdays and hell, sometimes we get to play on Mondays too!

A day at the beach with a cup of coffee- could it get any better?! It's finally getting warm in NY and a day at the beach felt like one of those little moments of happiness I spoke of before.

The BF and I walked along the shore, picking up pretty colored seaglass. It was great.

As "adults" , our palates have matured and we now enjoy food other than Captain Crunch or chicken nuggets smothered in ketchup. Last weekend the BF and I treated ourselves to some really great Indian food. I don't mind shelling out the bucks to eat something I could never make myself and this dish was one of those dishes.

This is what was left of my Shahi Chicken from Indian Clove before I remebered to snap a shot. Naan bread is one of my favorite treats that I could eat and eat and eat without taking a breath but a few years ago I hadn't ever even tried Indian cuisine. We grow-we learn to try new things.


We also learn that not all salads are boring (and healthy)...Example: Jose Tehas's Chicken Tostada Grande.

This was that Monday night fun I was telling you about. Instead of homework and my mom forcing me to eat her Texas rice, as an adult I didn't feel like cooking and headed to New Jersey's best tex-mex restaurant Jose Tehas. This place is awesome. All the food is great, but for some reason I usually end up ordering this salad (these are my leftovers I enjoyed for lunch today byt the way). It's salad (very adult) but you can EAT THE BOWL IT COMES IN (kid in you says "Yay")! New Jersey has great diners but Jose Tehas is the place to be- as you'll find when you pull up at 6pm on a Monday and there's already a wait!


Of course growing up comes with negatives and positives but this week, a setback of growing up I'm noticing is the anger that comes with being an adult.

This week has given me a waterfall of excuses to be angry at everything and almost everyone. I'm angry at bills, I'm angry at that there's ALWAYS something that HAS to be done, I'm angry that I can't afford a house- even though I work so hard, I'm angry that I always have to worry...there's this anger that I didn't expect. As a kid we don't have many responsibilities and therefore less to get upset over. Today I got so angry at work, over something so little-it almost brought me to tears. I had enough, so tonight when I got home I made sure to relax and instead I ended up passing out cold on the couch. Anger takes away enegery- even the enegry for positive things. I know I have to deal with this now beacuse if history repeats itself; life is only going to get more difficult. Of course I'll always keep my fingers crossed for those moments of awesome happiness too.