Funk This

So I got a job. I start on Monday. I just don't know what to say about it. I'm just really scared- I guess. I'll be working for Community Relations for an old age home. I just hope that I have enough to do to keep me busy for 40 hours a week- that's my main concern. I'm still a little unclear exactly what they want from me. Everyone there seems super nice though so I'm very looking forward to that. I'm know I don't sound excited and I don't know why. I hope after my first day there I feel a little bit more excited.

I spoke to Career Counselor yesterday and he had only good things to say about me. about how hard I worked and how I'll do great in this job. This just frustrates me. How come everyone else can see it but I don't. I wish I was going into this job thinking "I'm gonna nail this". Instead I think about how horrible it would be if this job doesn't work out because the economy is so bad and I'll probably never get a job again.

I'll also be moved in with my boyfriend this week. There's just so much going on. As soon as my insurance kicks in I'm going to speak to a counselor. I think it will help. I should be so excited about all the things going on in my life because they're so great but instead, I'm in a horrible funk.