Update

I can't believe it's been so long. I fumbled upon this at my desk and felt the need to update-even though it's been months and months.

Did my Job work out? Yes! I'm still here and I feel as I have been successful at it. Although I do feel as if maybe I'm growing a bit bored of it, which is to be expected I think. I'm young and everything looks tempting and sparkly right now. This is has the most perfect 1st real job a girl could have. My employers only gave me some stickies with suggestions and I ran with it, although I wish I could be sprinting with it, when you're given nothing to start with you have to jog a bit first.

I still struggle with self confidence. I did start speaking to a counselor and although it does help I have discovered that low- self confidence may be something I'm stuck dealing with for years to come. My struggle with life is continuing with my schooling. Last year I got into a graduate program but could not continue because it was changed to day only classes and I would have been forced to give up my job. School is great and will happen but it can wait- work and this job is the key that that will open more doors. I thought about applying again this fall but honestly, my thoughts on what to master have changed and fear they will change again so I figured I'd wait another year to make sure I choose the right path to study. Plus I don't feel like I'm waisting time because my job can be applied to what I'd like to study.


Living with my boyfriend has been both good and bad I guess. His schedule is hard to deal with- that's the bad part but when I do get to see him- it's fantastic. Living together has really allowed us to grow up. We have to face real problems and make real solutions to deal with those problems.

I have to say I don't know what the future looks like but I know I'm working to get there. I really am.